Popping in!

Hello Everyone!

Just wanted to say Hi and let yall know that I still do exsist! I have been through some pretty tough times physically, mentally and emotionally! I will be sharing with yall real soon some stuff that has happened! I just had another surgery and had to have my ovaries removed so now I am completely gutted! No woman parts, just outward woman stuff! LOL! I am now in the middle of menopause at the age of 28 so it has been hard to say the least! I will be getting everything updated soon so bear with me! I hope yall are doing good and I hope to catch back up with yall! Here is a poem that I wrote recently to give yall an idea of what has been going on!

April 5, 2009
Resurrection

The ominous cloak remains
disguising, restricting my view
And it embraces all that I am
petrified to face.

Heavy burdened it becomes
Above me, on my shoulders
As a yolk to an ox
Causing every bone in my
Body to cry out in agony.

To my core it is reaching
In hopes of destroying
My heart. Taking away the
Only thing that might be
Left pounding, living, boundless
Within.

My mind is now a fog, powerless
To continue simple tasks that use
To be so unchallenging; becoming breakdowns
And attacks of what I have distorted into

Tearing, ripping, and clawing erratically.
Part of my soul trying
To retreat while the darkness
seeks to enter by force. I’m unable to
Break away from the shell
Of me for fear of what
The dementors will carry out.


The end is not in sight. The burden remains
As if to be a sentence that is undefined
And carried out with no redemption
My merit is in question.
Causing me to scream out
“Am I really not worth it?”

Weeping feverishly for something,
Someone to come and eradicate all
That this cloak has engrossed around
my inner most being. Waiting for the day
to come that the chains that have bound
will fall away from its enslaved being

For this will be the day of true Resurrection
that will be carried out by Abba Father
out of His absolute profound and authentic
love for the prodigal daughters arrival
from her absentness. Holding her in
the everlasting loving arms of her Heavenly Daddy
and whispering “Daughter you are worth all of it!”


Written By: Shauna Hernandez copyrighted 2009

Love yall and miss yall!

With my heart in His Hands
Shauna